Wednesday, March 16, 2011

My Heart is Heavy

My heart is heavy right now. I'm not sure what God is up to.....I have felt a heaviness in my spirit for about three weeks now. I've been praying through some things....for some people. I am struck with the need and only God is able to meet the needs of so many people....

We took our first trip to the ER since Spencer was an infant on Monday night. He had gone to the garage to get Natalie's favorite stuffed animal for her b/c she was scared. It was bedtime and she had to have it. Spencer volunteered to go get it....I was about to read three books with Justus and I heard this screaming sound. I just thought Spencer and Natalie had gotten into a fight, but as I came out of Justus room, Natalie was to my left....Then, that scream pierced me....I was like, "oh God" he's hurt. He came in and well....I'll spare you the details but let's just say blood was EVERYWHERE! Trevis was coming home from Bible study at the time. I knew it would require stitches though I couldn't tell how deep the cut was....He slipped on some water on the garage floor and tried to catch himself on his fall by grabbing the garage door on the way down....Who knew those ridges on the garage door were so sharp? So, he sliced that right ring finger....I cut a towel to make a turnakit (sp?) and tried to call Trevis. At that moment, he walked through the door. We quickly dressed Spencer.....and off Spencer and I  went to the local ER at the brand new hospital. Honestly, it was scary when we walked in. People were hurting with every kind of ailment. Some crying....some laying on the floor, and then there Spencer and I were...I was trying to keep the conversation light....I was flipping through a "Rutherford Parent" magazine b/c that's all I could find to distract him. He was doing ok. We were even cracking a few jokes. A few other people in the waiting room felt it necessary to share with Spencer about how their daughter's finger was amputated or how they slammed their finger in the car door and now it looks like this....Why do people do that? That was not encouraging to Spencer. Anyway, they called us back to triage about 30 minutes later and what'll you know? We had a nurse who rides at the horse barn where Natalie does....She was sweet and they came in and said he'd need some stitches. I was so thankful for that place. It was so clean and I was extra thankful after travelling to a 3rd world country that I can drive my son 6 minutes up the road to see doctors who can fix him up. We walked out at about 10:00 that night. Who knew? Just minutes before that accident we had been watching "Land Before Time"...all three kids and me on the couches.....

other things have happened as well....Such as everything I have scheduled this week has gone awry....Today, we are on our 3rd attempt to the orthodontist....my hair cut has been rescheduled twice....the track meet was cancelled last minute....I'm beginning to think, "why make plans or appts?" I am reminded that God is in control. His ways are not my ways nor are my ways His Ways.

People that we love have lost a brother and another family we have been praying for lost a baby girl. Thankfully, we know those people are in the arms of Jesus.....but still, their families miss them and I grieve and pray for them.

The natural disasters and nuclear reactors dispersing radiation have got me praying up for the people of Japan.

God, only you alone can save....Only you can bind up the brokenhearted...Only You can comfort.....

I also have been thinking about Ethiopia and the struggle with the adoptions there. Once I saw those little faces, they are forever seared in my mind. I have been thinking about the brothers that are 8 and 5. They are totally healthy and they have been "waiting" for a long time. Please join me in praying for a forever family for them. Their first names start with "G" and "M".

Psalm 36:7 speaks to me today:
How priceless is your unfailing love, O God! People take refuge in the shadow of your wings.

I hope the sun shines today!!
With Much Love,
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3 comments:

  1. I've been feeling that heaviness too. Such big stuff going on.

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  2. I hear ya on the heaviness. Praying that things start looking up for you.

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  3. I will start praying for those little siblings too. God knows who there parents are...maybe it's you!!! Glad Spencer's event went quick and what a blessing to know someone there for comfort and quickness!

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