Thursday, March 10, 2011

ahhhh....

I've been waiting to do this post b/c well....you know how it goes....when one of your kids does something and you tell people too quickly, then, lo and behold they don't do it anymore.....so I've waited about a week and a half to make sure it was for real....


I'm back in my bed!!! No, this is not my bed, but it looks comfy and cozy so I'm rolling with it. When we brought Justus Derero home, I learned really quickly that I was going to have to sleep in his room for awhile to provide security to him. He would wake up at 2:30 in the morning initially almost every night. He would say, "mama" and I would say, "yes, I'm right here". In the beginning he was hungry every night at that time so I would get him something to eat. He was jet lagged and his body was off and I had to show him that I could provide his physical needs. He would eat in bed and quickly go back to sleep. I slept on a twin mattress on his floor on the other side of his room. As time passed he got used to the time difference and eventually started sleeping through the night (till 5:00 am). I got as comfy as I could sleeping on that mattress. I would lay there after I put him to bed and think....as soon as he falls asleep, I'll get up....But you know what happened.....9 times out of 10, I'd fall asleep too.  I guess I needed the rest.

After about 4 weeks, I moved the mattress right outside his door in the hall....I told him I'd be right there if he needed me. He would call for me at about 5 b/c he needed to go to the bathroom. I'd tell him to go and tuck him back in...He'd usually talk in his bed or play until I flipped the light switch and told him it was time to get up....

So, a week after that.....Trevis moved the mattress into our bedroom. Justus said, "oh no Daddy". Mama sleep here (pointing to the hall). Trevis said, "no...Mama sleep with Daddy in Mama and Daddy's bed". I woke up several times that first night anticipating him getting up, but he didn't....He slept till 5:30 am...Woo ho. One night after another after another....

I do not take this lightly. I know it is a HUGE blessing that I can rock him (or just hold him) and read three books to him and lay him in his bed and he'll go to sleep on his own........He never wants to go to bed...(He will hide in the living room or close his door so I can't get in), but I know he's beginning to respond like a bio. child with healthy attachment trying to delay the separation of bedtime.

At nap now, he's not wanting me to rock him anymore. I kind of miss looking down at his sweet face sleeping in my arms singing "Jesus Loves Me" (b/c I didn't rock my older 2 to sleep) and realizing how safe he feels. Now, I read 3 books, tuck him in, and say good night. I do enjoy the extra few minutes of free time though....

There's only one thing that makes me sad....every day he wakes up from nap, he is sad/grumpy/angry....He always looks disoriented. This is strange b/c when he wakes in the morning he is always happy....I can't figure it out...It only lasts about 20 minutes, but I don't know how to make it better.....hmmm.....

Well, he's down for nap, so I better run.....
Thank you Lord for sleep.:)
With Much Love,
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