Adoption was heavy on my heart that day. Trevis and I had decided to slow down and save for the adoption b/c we just had a little over a thousand in the bank. (Everything was starting to move fast at this point.) We were encouraged to save by a lady at our agency and Trevis wanted to make sure we were acting responsibly and that a child would not be waiting for us and then us not have the money.
The Christmas Eve service started with "Carol of the Bells" by a drum core. My insides were shaking as the base was reverbrating all over the sanctuary. God's presense was so heavy. Words were flashing on the screen....GO! GABRIEL! GO! Chills went up and down my arms....I knew we were here for such a time as this. It continued to be a powerful song service and then Pastor Allen got up and preached....The title of the message was: "God knows how to get his children home." What? Seriously?!....ok Lord..I hear you. I almost cried, but I think I was in shock. I felt like the Dad in the Bible who said, "I believe Lord, but help my unbelief". Trevis and I both definately felt that God was giving us the green light to proceed and telling us He would get our child home......
One year later.....Here we are....God has been faithful to his word spoken to us. He has showed us what it means to truly trust.....to be at the end of yourself....and ONLY God can come through. He has showed us his face in all the little children we saw at the orphanage. He showed us THE child He has for our family....a 4 year old little boy who now waits at our agency's transition home. The one who had his first rice crispie treat, who's daddy threw him up for the first time in his life into the air and caught him....the one who belly laughs when I tickle his feet....who LOVES cars and bubbles. The one who clutches his new photo book of our family and doesn't want anyone else touching it...the one who is legally ours.....who we went half way around the world to see and can't wait to do it all over again....the one I long to hold, tuck in at night, teach, and read to him....
God loves him sooooooooo much more. Then it hit me...God loves us all like that. This journey has taught me so much about God's love and His provision....
Fast forward to this week...there was a travel group getting ready to pick up their children on Dec. 27th. That was their embassy date. However, the embassy wouldn't confirm the dates, so they all had to cancel flights. We had prayed like crazy for them. Why wouldn't they confirm? We do not know....This will push back their date now and in turn everyone else will be pushed back more than likely. Is it what we hoped for? No...but I'm reminded once again.....God knows how to get his children home. If it was up to me, I'd have brought him home when we came home along with the other three kids at HH who don't have a family yet...But, that's not how things work. We must trust and wait in hope....
Psalms 31:24: Be strong and take heart all you who hope in the LORD.
Psalms 27:14: Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.
Merry Christmas Eve and may God fill you with HOPE this Christmas.
With Much Love,
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