God Will Provide....Help My Unbelief

Mark 9:23-24

23 “‘If you can’?” said Jesus. “Everything is possible for one who believes.”

24 Immediately the boy’s father exclaimed, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”

This scripture speaks to me these days...Yes, I know in this passage it is pertaining to a deaf and mute spirit, but I think the principal is the same.

Let me take you back a couple of weeks ago. I found myself anxious about our 2nd travel trip to Ethiopia. Now, I'm excited about the first one b/c we have what we need, donations are beginning to roll in for the orphanage, and we are fully funded, praise God. However, the 2nd one was stressing me out. I was looking at present circumstances....lots of birthdays in November, Christmas, and more birthdays in January. To be honest the money is not there and not sure how it will arrive, so I began looking into fundraiser ideas.... I sent out a post on our agency's listserv about a couple of things with not really the profit I was hoping for. Trevis kept telling me...."Baby, God will take care of it....Let's just take one trip at a time." ok...Honestly, that is real easy to say, but a little harder to swallow when you're looking at about $5,500 for the next trip at least. So, a few days later, the guys Trevis does side work said they had some more work for him to do. Hooray! That will definately help. I received an encouraging email last week from a parent of a little boy who was in my class 3 years ago about following God's will and how God will meet our needs. It was really what I needed. I was becoming a little more at peace about it. You see, all along this adoption road, it has been a faith walk. There has only been one time when the next payment was sitting in our savings account waiting to be due and that was our referral. Everything else has come right on time.....not early

right

on

time.

So, it was a Saturday night a couple of weeks ago and we were going to church. I peeked inside the bulletin and had a little chuckle b/c God has a sense of humor....that's why. The message was "God's Provision"--not even kidding. I am now once again looking to God. I know he can provide. I have experienced it time and time again and then I go trying to figure it all again. I want to hollar out, "God, help my unbelief!!". I listened as Pastor Allen shared scripture that backed up God's provision and the components of contentment, work, and generosity. I was like ok.....most of the time I'm content, I'm now working at home being an at-home mom and trying to volunteer, and well....most of the time, giving comes easy for me. So, I'm thinking OK...hmmm...what's next?

Last week, I was very encouraged. A friend emailed me that her 2nd grade class would like to collect things for me to take to the orphanage when we travel and they had some cash too. I haven't seen her in a couple of years. We were in a mom-to-mom group several years ago together.....Just another way God showing me He provides. Another friend sent a bag of donations with her daughter to school for my daughter to pick up.

2 days ago we went to church on Sunday morning. I peeked into the bulletin to look at the title of the sermon notes.....You know it's now kind of a joke between me and God. I swear He sees straight through me....Either that our our pastor has ESP-haha! You know what it said this week?

God

Will

Provide

Seriously....ok. now I know that I know that I know that He's got this. He wants Justus to come to our family more than I do. He has people who are genuinely seeking him for where they are to give. That afternoon, a previous neighbor we love showed up with all kinds of donations for the orphanage.

The main lesson: God is Our Source--Jehovah Jirah--He's it. If he provided a sacrifice to Abraham after he bound his son on an alter, surely He can meet our needs.

Psalms 24:1-6

The earth is the Lord's and everything in it, the world, and all who live in it; for he founded it upon the seas and established it upon the waters. Who may ascend the hill of the Lord? Who may stand in his holy place? He who has clean hands and a pure heart, who does not lift up his soul to an idol or sear by what is false. He will receive blessing from the LORD and vindication from God his Savior. Such is the generation of those who seek him, who seek your face, O God of Jacob. Selah

I want to have clean hands and a pure heart. I want to love and trust with abandon. Then, that ole fear thing creeps again again. I am reminding myself that God did not give me a spirit of fear, but of power and love and a sound mind.

I am thankful that God looks down from Heaven and speaks to me...That he speaks through pastors, friends, and people who are earnestly seeking him. God is faithful.

He

will

provide.

With Much Love,